My A1c Struggles (Updated)

A little over a year ago I posted this blog...

"I struggle with eating, up to a few years ago my food choices were pretty bad and my weight and A1c numbers proved it. In October of 2014 my A1c levels were at 6.4 which is considered pre-diabetic. And in all actuality if I was .1 more at 6.5 I would be diagnosed with diabetes. This diagnosis scared me as I didn't want to have diabetes because once you are diagnosis with it you will forever be, even if you bring your numbers down.

The doctor gave me three months to bring my numbers down and three months later after modifying my diet and running everyday I managed to bring my A1c from 6.4 to 6.0.. then I found NerdStrong and I continued to try and eat healthy (with lots of ups and downs) but six months later my A1c went from 6.0 to 5.7.. I was super happy.. with in one year I went from being .1 away from having diabetes to now being .1 away from being "normal". Six months later I had my A1c tested and it went from 5.7 to 5.7, yep.. no movement at all. I was disappointed in that number, I mean I was happy that the number didn't go up but still after dropping so much over the year it was disappointing.

Now it's one year later and I got my A1c numbers again and again like before it was 5.7 and is currently 5.7. My doctor was happy with those numbers but I wasn't. I've worked hard at working out 5 to 6 days a week and though my eating hasn't been the best it's better then what it was but I still can't seem to get that number any lower. Bright side I guess is that my number didn't go up.. so I'm happy about that but I hope for my next doctor visit that number can drop just .1 to 5.6"
 

Well it's been a year since then and I had my annual physical a few weeks back and I finally got my results, everything was okay for the most part but all I was interested in was my A1c.. after he went through all my numbers I asked him what about my A1c and he said, It's normal... I said normal.. what does that mean and he said 5.6, you are no longer considered pre-diabetic. 

I couldn't believe it... I've been trying for over three years to get that number to 5.6 and it finally happened. I'm not only proud of myself because I did it but I did it the old fashion way.. with hard work... no medicine. 

It's weird that I actually achieved my #1 goal, it's the reason why I started this fitness adventure and joined Nerdstrong. Of course this is not the end.. my fitness journey has just begun, I have achieved my biggest goal but I'm still on high blood pressure and high cholesterol medicine that I would like to get off one day. Also my triglyceride are a bit high so I'd like to get those numbers down as well.. so my fitness journey continues. 

Crazy What A Picture Can Do For Self Esteem

For my third anniversary at my gym NerdStrong I had my friend Stephanie take a picture of me with the NerdStrong Logo behind me. When I saw it I was pretty shocked.. I looked good, and when I say good I mean really damn good.
If you know me you know I have body dismorphia issues and rarely think I look good. Folks around me have said how much I've changed in three years and though I know it's true I don't see it. I only see the flaws in my body, but this time around it was like seeing myself for the first time the way others see me and it made it feel amazing.

It's crazy how one picture can change your outlook on yourself. It's been four days since I took that picture and I'm still on that high, I'm looking at myself differently now. I'm seeing my large arms and shoulders. I'm impressed with my new neck muscles. I actually feel attractive for the first time in a long time.

I know it won't last, I'll see something or someone will say something but I'm going to ride this high for as long as I can.. hopefully I can keep it around for a while.

Thank you to everyone for your continued support.. I couldn't have come this far without it.

Can't I Find A Normal Guy?!?!?

So I've been hitting Tinder, Chappy and Cuddli (dating apps) pretty hard this past month as well as paying for Compatible Partners (e-Harmony's answer to gay dating), but I'm not having any luck though and the ones I do connect with either never respond to my "hi" or we start a conversation and it just ends after a few comments.

My latest (yesterday) was from Tinder..

I matched with this guy, he's cute and a dermatologist.. he starts the conversation with "Hey how r u", I say "fine, just waiting for my workday to end". He responds with "Great.. What do you do for work". I tell him "I'm a post production supervisor for TV, how about yourself" He says "Dermatologist". I say "Very cool".. about an hour passes and I say "I see you like to travel, have you been to anywhere unusual?" He responds with "Not really. Mostly usual places" I then respond with "What's been your favorite" and he doesn't respond for five hours and then he send one word "Bottom".

In my head I'm like.. well thank you for letting me know but no where in our conversation were we going there.. unless he was speaking code that I wasn't aware of it or he was talking to several guys and accidentally texted that to me. Either way.. I wish I could just have a regular conversation with someone before it turns to sex. I know sex is important (especially for gay men, gotta be compatible) but I'd like to get to know the person at least a little bit before we have that conversation. When guys immediately jump to the top/bottom conversation it tells me that all they are interested in is sex and I'm not looking for a hook up.. I'm looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with. Is it to much to ask to find someone who's doing the same?

I may be living in the wrong city to find the kind of guy that I hope to spend the rest of my life with. I just want a sweet, kind, good-hearted, hard working, honest guy.. is that to much to ask for?

I'm Back

Hey everybody... I've missed you. I fell behind on my daily blog the past year and a half and I've tried several times to back blog stuff but it's just so overwhelming.. so I have decided that I will just start a new. I won't be blogging everyday as I just don't have the time but I will blog my thoughts on movies, tv shows or other pop culture things. I'll also blog about my life, 2018 is the year I start focusing on dating again.

I find blogging therapeutic and kind of like a diary for my life. I don't expect people to read it (though I do have a nice following, or I should say I did). But I personally love looking back at blogs and remembering all the good and not so good times I've had.

Since I'm not blogging daily I may blog several times a day or not for a few days... And me being the anal person that I am I'm sure I will go back and back blog super important moments in the my life the past few years.. so please check back often. I'll also be posting links on my Facebook and Twitter page whenever I release a new blog.

So happy to be back!!!