Monday, August 20, 2012

Miss Being in Love

While on set of The Guild this past weekend I saw one of the crew members and there was something about him, I just wanted to go up and caress his cheek (but of course I didn't) and this overwhelming feeling of love came over me. Don't know why, don't know the guy, never saw him before. After that moment of craziness it hit me... I miss being in love.

Of course I miss the physical side of being in a relationship but what I miss even more is the idea of being in love. The look in your partners eyes when they gaze at them as you lie in bed. I miss the touch of their skin against mine. I miss the sheepish smile on their face when you catch them off guard. I miss sharing my ups and downs with them. I miss being their for them when they need a shoulder to cry on. I miss sitting in the living room and geeking out over some sci fi or fantasy show that we both love. I miss holding hands. I miss cuddling. I miss sharing my life with someone. I miss being needed. I miss being loved. I miss being cherished. I miss the idea of this person being the one person you will spend the rest of your life with. I miss being in love.

1 comment:

  1. This got to me deeply. Oh Kenny I know you'll find it someday and maybe soon. It sounds like you are finally ready and open for it. I hope we find someone to cherish you like you deserve.

    "Listen, when I was a little girl I used to spend hours looking for ladybugs. Finally, I'd just give up and fall asleep in the grass. When I woke up, they were crawling all over me. " I hope you wake up soon.

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