Asking for Help

Well the day has come.. I had to ask for financial assistance from my Mom and Step Dad. I've never asked for anything from anyone since I was 15, I've always been self reliant and doing this is just killing me. But after eight months of not working it takes of toll on your savings. If I didn't own this house, it would be a different story, but I don't want to lose my house so I swallowed my pride and made the call.

Being freelance I've always been good at saving up for the lean times and this time was no different.. only problem is, I'm normally out of work for 2 to 3 months which my savings can handle but eight months in a row is just too much time off. 

Don't get wrong I'm very thankful that I have this option I know alot of people out there don't. But it so hard for me to accept help. I'm a 40+ year old man, I should be able to take care of my own debt and the fact that it has come to this is just devastating me.

I use to live paycheck to paycheck in my 20's but was fortunate enough to be debt free by my late 20's and into my 30's. Then I meet Harry and got into a bit a debt again and a few years ago we manage to get out of debt so I'm debt free once again (yay!!). So I've grown accustom to not worrying about money. When I go out with friends I would occasionally buy dinner for everyone or when I go grocery shopping I don't worry what the final bill will be.. well now I need to worry about those things and it's tough because I haven't worried about those things for so long. But today having to ask my mom for money was a wake up call. I now know that I can't be spending money like I did in the past (at least not until I find a job).

It's going to be tough because I'll be making some sacrifices but it's what I need to do to stay on my feet until I find another job.