Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Looks Aren't Everything
I've struggled my entire teenage and adult life with they way I looked. I am short, a little over 5"3' and I've always had an issue with it. I was made fun of as a kid and before I was out of the closet I had difficulty getting a date with girls because most woman (not all) don't like short men . Besides being short I'm stocky as I like to call it. I top just over 200lbs and doctors tell me that I'm obese, according to their medical standards. So I'm a short stocky obese male. Beauty/Handsome are subjective to each person but there are what the general populace would consider beautiful or handsome and I wouldn't consider myself either
It's funny as you get older you realize there is more to life then the way you look. It's unfortunate that it can take years and years to reach that point. I think once I came out at 27 things changed and I started to look at myself differently. Luckily for me the guys I liked weren't into tall, dark and handsome, they looked beyond that and saw the beauty within. I accepted that I was going to be short all my life, there really wasn't anything I could do to change that. I also accepted that I am stocky.. I'll always be stocky, even when I lose weight I'll still be broad shouldered and stocky.. it's just the way my body was built. As for being handsome, I've accepted that isn't in the cards for me. If someone doesn't like me for the way I look then they are not worth my time anyways.
It's taken years but I'm finally happy with myself, I like the person I have become.